تاب بعد 17 سنة من عمل السحر ؟ بودكاست الساحر التائب حامد آدم | ج1

Summary

The episode begins an interview with Hamed Adam, who says he practiced magic for 17 years. The interviewer asks him to tell his story in three stages: what led him toward magic, what happened during those years, and how he later repented. This excerpt mainly covers his childhood and the spiritual teachings and practices that, in his account, led him toward magic; it does not yet reach his repentance.

Childhood and Quranic study

Hamed describes a system in his home country in which some children attended formal schools, while others left home to study and memorize the Quran with religious teachers.

As a boy, he saw peers return from Quranic study to celebrations, gifts, and offers of marriage. He says this made him want the same recognition and respect. He also hoped to become one of the revered religious figures he had heard about, whom people described as saints or “people of God.”

At around seven or eight years old, he left home to study the Quran in a distant area. He says he memorized quickly and was appointed a teacher, or “sheikh,” at the Quranic school within six months. One teacher called him a “peg,” a term Hamed associates with a spiritual rank or status.

Introduction to the Tijaniyya order and “hidden” knowledge

Hamed says a teacher promised to introduce him to the Tijaniyya Sufi order, describing it as especially important and as a path toward spiritual advancement.

He was told that the Quran had both an outward meaning and a hidden, inner meaning, and that the order could teach “secrets” associated with passages such as Al-Fatiha, Ayat al-Kursi, and Surah Yasin. According to Hamed, teachers described spiritual advancement through stages and ranks, including “pegs,” “nobles,” and “poles.” He says a “pole” was presented as having responsibility for a direction or region, while the “Ghawth” was described as a higher rank.

He recounts being told that a particular prayer, the Prayer of the Conqueror, was equivalent to reciting the Quran 6,000 times. He also mentions the Jewel of Perfection, which he says was to be recited only in a state of ritual purity.

These accounts are presented as teachings he says he received, not as independently verified facts.

Teachings used to justify secret authority

Hamed says his teachers invoked the Quranic story of Moses and al-Khidr to explain why a spiritual teacher might act in ways that appeared wrong or incomprehensible to outsiders.

In the story as discussed in the interview, Moses questions al-Khidr’s actions, including damaging a boat, killing a boy, and repairing a wall. The interviewer asks Hamed to explain the story further.

Hamed says the teachers used this story to demand patience and obedience. He was told not to question their instructions or he would be expelled before learning the “higher” knowledge.

He recounts being taught that people with special spiritual status could understand hidden meanings unavailable to ordinary Muslims. The teachers’ alleged claims went as far as saying that a person who knew what was written in the Preserved Tablet might not be accountable for certain crimes. The interviewer flags this section for clarification.

Hamed also says he was taught to alter Quranic recitations—for example, by reversing words or letters, or inserting unfamiliar phrases—and was told these techniques revealed hidden secrets.

Account of a 41-day retreat

Hamed describes a severe retreat that he says he undertook after choosing 41 days:

• He was instructed to stay alone in a remote dwelling and not leave until the retreat was over.
• He says he was told to remove his clothes, perform two units of prayer, and recite passages in unusual or reversed forms.
• He reports being given very limited food and water, describing a ration of three dates a day and restricted water.
• He says he was warned that leaving the retreat or failing the test could have serious consequences.
• During the final day, he says he experienced frightening visions, including a large centipede, a scorpion attacking a woman and child, and a mounted figure. He recounts these as visions or experiences during the retreat.
• He says he was told that a spiritual being—identified by the teacher as an angel rather than a jinn—might come to test him. The interviewer questions the distinction, and Hamed says the frightening encounters were meant to test his resolve and obedience.

Speakers and sources featured

• Interviewer/host: Asks Hamed about his background, beliefs, and experiences, and seeks clarification on the story of al-Khidr and the claims about hidden knowledge.
• Hamed Adam: Interview guest who recounts his childhood Quranic studies, teachings from Sufi teachers, and his account of the retreat and its visions.
• Teachers and sheikhs described by Hamed: Not present as speakers; their teachings and instructions are reported secondhand by Hamed.