Still Missing My Dog 😞 | Cleaning to Keep My Mind Busy

Overview

The video is a grief-and-recovery livestream in which the creator copes with the loss of her dog. She stays busy with home/pool/backyard projects, connects with viewers and friends, and works through emotional and practical steps afterward—especially financial and legal tasks.

Key wellness + self-care strategies mentioned

• Use structured “busy work” to manage grief

  • Keeping the pool cleaned and maintained to stay mentally engaged.
  • Doing backyard cleanup and landscaping, including removing problematic fast-growing trees and planting/maintaining fruit trees.
  • Scrubbing algae/spots and removing debris (e.g., pine needles/bugs) as a calming routine.

• Stay connected to community for emotional support

  • Receiving encouragement from friends (e.g., Devin) and from viewers.
  • Responding to the live chat, celebrating connections through supportive messages (love/hugs, acknowledging notes).

• Create small moments of comfort

  • Spending time in the pool because it “feels so good” and looks peaceful.
  • Allowing herself to enjoy nature and California weather.
  • Noticing small wins—such as fruit appearing on a tree after years.

• Gradual re-engagement with responsibilities

  • Continuing practical tasks even while grieving, including disputing charges, editing her GoFundMe, and planning future content/brand obligations when emotionally ready.

Productivity / problem-solving tactics discussed

Financial dispute + accountability steps

• She disputed credit card and hospital charges and is reviewing the outcomes.
• Key points she mentioned:
  • American Express refunded ~$7,500 after a quality/service issue.
  • She is now trying to dispute CareCredit charges.
• She also sought advice on:
  • How to dispute credit card charges.
  • Potential legal next steps.

Legal/administrative planning while grieving

• She considered whether to sue.
• She hired a medical specialist to review the chart.
• She wanted to gather/organize medical records and expressed regret about not requesting them in real time.

Emotional reality check (important theme)

• Grief is described as ongoing and difficult
  • She said it has been about 2 months since losing her dog and that she “can’t handle grief well.”
  • She referenced different coping approaches others use (e.g., posting memories, dreaming of loved ones).
  • She also noted she is not ready for certain grief triggers—specifically dog-loss movies like Marley & Me or Pet Sematary.

Wellness-adjacent practical habits (home routines that support mental state)

• Mindful connection through animals

  • She cares for stray cats in the backyard and plans to bring them inside eventually, though she isn’t ready to “just buy a dog.”
  • She discussed grief alongside fear about not being able to love another animal the same way.

• Nature-based comfort

  • Backyard projects and fruit-tree gardening function as grounding activities.

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Presenters / sources

• Devin (friend helping with backyard/pool activities and support)
• Nikki (viewer/friend; sent a travel/Airbnb idea video)
• Jocelyn Herman (mentor; referenced for coping example after her mom’s passing)
• Mike (viewer/friend who created the GoFundMe)
• Kyle (viewer; expressed sympathy)
• Jimmy (viewer)
• Maureen (viewer mentioned by her name in chat)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin (viewer/location mentioned)
• American Express (credit card dispute/refund source)
• CareCredit (financing/charge disputed source)
• Kim (animal communicator who advised against cloning the dog)
• Home Depot (store mentioned for supplies/plants)