Creepypasta - Apotemnofilia

Overview

A woman narrates her lifelong struggle with body integrity identity disorder (apotemnophilia)—the feeling that parts of her body don’t belong to her. This manifests as intense self-hatred and a desperate need to remove those parts.

As a child, she copes by digging into her own thighs until they go numb. She believes she’s alone in her torment until she finds online communities where people like her are understood rather than treated as monsters. Those groups become her lifeline: friendships formed through forums and role-playing games where she can “feel whole” in a body that matches her perception—until reality crashes back in and depression threatens her.

The Group and the “Success Story”

After months of bonding online, she meets Kyle (Kyle/Magi is the narrator’s identity overlap—she recognizes him immediately), along with Grace and Howard, in person.

Kyle shares what he calls the most extreme “success story”:

• He says he caused his own amputation by putting his arm into a garbage disposal.
• He survived.
• He claims he feels complete afterward.

The group is shocked—but also envious—because it seems to validate their hope that their condition can be “fixed.”

Dr. Felix and the “Cure”

Their hope becomes a trap when they contact a rumored doctor: Dr. Felix. He promises to amputate only after providing a “cure” that makes them want their body parts removed. The agreement is explicit about risk and irreversibility.

The surgeries are planned to occur privately—at the narrator’s home—citing “discretion.”

The Operation: Awareness, Manipulation, and Loss

On the day of her operation, she realizes she’s awake and aware while being paralyzed, forced to watch the procedure unfold.

Dr. Felix explains his “research” in chilling, clinical terms. He injects her with a drug he claims is a cure by altering her neural perception—making her accept the loss rather than fight it.

She describes:

• The horror of seeing the tools
• The sensation of being cut
• A sudden wave of overwhelming desire
• An inability to blink
• Then, losing consciousness

When she wakes, her legs are gone. Dr. Felix tells her she’s been “cured” by permanently eliminating her dysmorphia.

Aftermath: Betrayal and Phantom Limb Pain

Her joy collapses into dread when she learns the truth: Grace and Howard weren’t spared.

• She calls Grace and hears only Howard, confirming they share the nightmare.
• She begins experiencing phantom limb pain, including pain “in a place” where nothing remains.
• She and Grace cry for hours.

Grace even attempted to go to the police, but was redirected to a psychologist because her consent made the situation legally complicated.

Investigation and the Reveal

The group attempts to investigate Dr. Felix:

• No office
• No records
• No published research
• No phone trail
• Eventually, no sign of Kyle

The “cure” is revealed as something far worse than treatment: Dr. Felix used them as test subjects. Their lifelong dream of being “correct” becomes a living hell because:

• The decision was manipulated
• The loss can’t be undone

In the end, after surgeries, they meet again to exchange notes—still without answers—while grief and betrayal outweigh every earlier hope.

Highlights / Notable Reactions & Dark Turns

• The story contrasts online acceptance (“we’re not monsters”) with society’s disgust and boos.
• Kyle’s garbage disposal confession is the first shocking “it worked” moment that hooks the others.
• Dr. Felix’s method is the core horror: paralyze + force awareness + drug “cure” + amputate, using their reactions as proof.
• The narrator’s emotional whiplash—relief turning into rage and terror—is central.
• Their final realization: their “success” created permanent suffering, including phantom limb pain and the knowledge they were experimented on.
• The ending is bleak: they got what they wanted, but must live with the cost forever, unable to find Dr. Felix or Kyle.

Appearing Personalities

• Narrator / Magi (main viewpoint; “patient seven” after surgery)
• Kyle (missing arm; claims self-harm led to happiness)
• Grace (another patient; later goes to the police)
• Howard (another patient; loses one leg “a little better,” initially)
• Dr. Felix (the surgeon who manipulates and amputates as “research/test subjects”)